meteor shower tonight at 4 am...watch it

right so i'm here now. and i didn't update in...i have no idea.

so harry potter wasn't all i expected, thanks a shit load kai for the "grades 1-6" comment. because i'm sure i'm the only one above the age of 11 who went to go see it yesterday, in fact i know i wasn't...seeing as how i went with other people my age. but yeah dude, his eyes were blue they cut out huge scenes, only had one quidditch game, not to mention that he looks nothing like his father. but hey, it's all good, since wood was really cute and all.

"he could have his own movie! it could be called, 'it's all good in the wood' "

sorry for that one guys, it was inspired by the sleep deprived applebees employee.

i am royally fucked, don't let 'em see me like, don't let 'em see me like this...

i am so very tired, however...and i'm getting closer and closer to being reviewed at diarycritic so that should be good, in the having your writing torn apart and raped sort of way. hopefully my bitchings and moanings are good enough for the elitests of diaryland. if not i think i'll sit in my corner and cry. right.

i am the biggest loser ever. i don't know what i want. i always have. most of the time...or at least i thought i did...now i at most, just don't want to be alone. ben says tim and i will get back together. i would have believed him several days ago...but now i'm not so sure. i think it's dead now. i think i've pretty much ass raped all chances of a normal relationship with this boy. perhaps i should move on. perhaps i don't want to move on. i can't sleep anymore, and i cry my eyes out at every mention of romance. i can't even think of other guys...that's a lie. but as far as my drive to go out and get laid goes, it's dead. yes kiwi, much like luke's i suppose. i just want some boy to care about me like tim did. i want someone who will tell me when i've done something stupid...someone who will comfort me and give me advice. and of course love me...but i think that goes without saying.

"the stars were made for us."

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